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I find myself before your presence, your eyes look at me with such disrespect as if you wanted to be away from me, but nothing is said from your lips and I start to wonder myself in trying to guess what your thoughts are. You stumble upon a bit of anger as you say that distance is what you desire from me, making it look like I am unable to keep up with what you wonder to get from me or just even ask. I start to walk away so that I wouldn't had to hear another word you might say, far, as far away as possible.
After some time away from you, I start to think of what you could be doing, and if you had calmed down from what I couldn't understand that had happened, I felth confused. Day by day, night by night, time passes and I keep wondering. I go on living my life as it should suposed to be while I never get to know about you or hear a word that you might had said, you desapeared completely from the range of my life, weird.
One day, I find myself looking in the mirror thinking what of me could have made you so upset, though I never found the simplest answer. I can't cherish any memory of you since they all seem to have faded away, like every word you wispered in my hears, you've realy, realy gone missing in my life.
I don't know why, but I do feel pain for not knowing you anymore, I get anguished everytime I try to remember, each single time, it causes my head to ache and my mind to swell in and endless pit of thoughts, It's painfull. Feeling lost, I loose the courage to be able to try searching for you, I feel that I would never find you like I used to do it out there on the world, I'm trying to give it up on all of it but there is something that I can't find that keeps me attached to the feeling that you are still out there.
At nights I whisper to my self saying that I need to go ahead and keep trying to forget you, this all looks like you've made it with a purpose, knowing me like you do, that I would just let it go without doing anything... as if you would really know of it, maybe, but that doesn't mean you could do it anyway, you big jerk. This is why I try to forget, this is why all the effort I could put it in would seem useless.
And much more useless to thing of persuing you, for such thought would even pass through so many minds, I could not care less of it...
But one thing is for sure, every living thing in this planet would say that your reasons, may be pure, but the way you did to accomplish them were wrong, now you've lost I you could had kept, I can't know if you ahve any regrets, but don't just drag those regrets along with me.